I changed a lot after i start my job as QA in Venture.

Attitude 360 degree changed. My nature of job requesting me to be more details, more specific, more kepoh, more time spend on BED during weekend and less time with HER.

I easily get mad this time. A lonely guy like me need to work as FIRE FIGHTING in production line is really tough. TOUGH in mean of tired of lost focus in almost everything. I am not sure what is my target, my motive and also a simple thing like enough money to use is always be questioned during every end of the month. I am really wondering is that is their policy to pay FRESH GRAD as low as they can.

Too tired to think this few day. Tired of thinking should I changed my job or remain there. Or should I said is no one either my family or friends are supporting my pre-make decision. The decision that I planned to leave here and go some other place with better offer, better benefit and better training. I really dunno wish to continue stay here as doing the same thing and the same thing again everyday, weeks and years just like my manager.

Today interview is fine for me. Meeting back the old Senior Manager which I used to know him during my training. Nowadays he is a DIRECTOR. Can't believe he is the one who interview me. Unbelievable. A director is coming and interview me!! luckily I didn't screw up. According to him, he recommended me go for a second round interview with his manager, SAM. I think should not be any problem.

Now come out another problem, who know anyone can predict future?? I need someone who know how to predict future for me. ANYONE?? ANYBODY?? She will be going back PENANG soon. Next week is her last week in KL and I can't even afford for a ticket to there. I am so SHAME. SHAME till nothing I wish to say much.

After she be there in PENANG, when will be our next meet?? Tired of this kind of long distances relationship and tired of waiting. SHOULD I ASK HER for solution?? Or should I just work hard and earn 1Million and marry her?

WHY???